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Carl Sagan Expalins The Origing of the Universe

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Chris Hedges

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FIghting Depression

Fighting depression is an area that I struggle with.   I feel that I have lost my self-confindence and alcohol has become the perfect substitute for dealing with my lack of self-confidence.  

Alcohol provides only temporary solution that gets you through a day.  But it does not lead to long-term happiness.  It leads to a ruin life and depression

For some reason, I would rather drink through life.  It is a terrible thing to do, but I have to remain numb to my feelings and as long that I have my current job , I am going to drink

It is just this face of life that I have to get depressed about.  Depression means nothing but misery in life and that is how I feel about life is nothing but misery.  Misery generated from a job that I cannot do

So I love you misery! Misery you make good company.

January 29, 2012 at 7:57 pm Leave a comment

Porn does not make you any happier

Let’s break it to everybody.  Jacking off feels good.  But it is nothing that you should constantly.  There is a link between porn and depression as discussed below

“Think your real-life relationships are unsatisfying?Well, consider this before you look for love and companionship in the extra-human realm. A study last month by Australian researchers found that men who have cyber sex had “alarmingly high” rates of depression, stress and anxiety.   The study surveyed 1,325 men from the U.S. and Australia who spent an average of 12 hours a week engaged in Internet sex activities, including porn, online chats, and Web cams.The men were then evaluated for mental health. More than a quarter (27 percent) were moderately to severely depressed, 30 percent had high levels of anxiety, and 35 percent were moderately to severely stressed.The most avid cybersex users were also the most severely depressed.  

The researchers caution, to the relief of many, that the correlation doesn’t mean porn causes depression, or that sad people flock to porn.Although, for those in the latter group, previous research has indicated that simulated sex doesn’t cause the same release of stress-relieving”

All of stuff that I watch at Cliphunter is only for temporary relief. I do not spend hours and hours thinking about fantasies of having anal sex with a hot chick.

It is only temporary sexual relief that it is done a few times a week to relief the sexual urges that men  have.  When porn is used on occassion and not viewed for hours on end, it is has a relaxing effect for me.

Some men just do not have social skills to get into relationships or life issues where relationships would make things very difficult to handle.  In my case, I greatly qualify to do this.  I have multiple stressors right now and a relationship is the last thing that I need.

However, if I let myself look at that stuff for hours and hours, I am going to be depressed.  The  feeling of relief that it brings for temporary moment is going to replace with  stress that I do not need.

I urge that porn be watched in moderation and only if you do not have access to the real thing.  It is highly addicting habit that some people just cannot handle.  For myself, I stay away from liquor because it has dangerous effect. Moderate drinking is not an activity that I can enjoy.  On other hand, porn is something that I do in moderation and therefore, I can handle it.

However, there is people out there where porn is like liquor and they should not look at it.  The amount of pleasure recieved will be replaced high level of stress.  An old sponsor told me that watching porn takes away the pleasure of the real thing just a little bit each time that is done.

In conclusion, I need to remember that my coping mechanism allow me to watch it, but for others, it is going to create deviant thoughts and more stress in life that you cna imagine.  Therefore, porn is not everybody and the impact of your porn upon your psyche is something you have to be very careful about doing.


January 25, 2012 at 4:48 am Leave a comment

Major solar storm

Major solar storms happened today!  Wow, the sun is surely a violent place

January 25, 2012 at 3:18 am Leave a comment

An Insanely Hard Quiz

This is an insanely hard quiz  I struck out on my attempts to do it.  And I supposed to be the master of trivia.

January 23, 2012 at 3:52 am Leave a comment

My self-will st…

My self-will stinks.  It stinks to high heaven.  For too long, I have tried to live on self-will, but to learn that my own place in this universe is a low one. My own bottom is a creation from its own self-will. I had thought that the I had the ability to handle life on life term’s. How dare I think that?  The reality is that my self-will had told me that I am full of it. I have to seek out God and find him now.  I cannot walk the path of life without divine assistance any more.  Yeah, I have run the show and look where it got me. In a place and a bind that I cannot recovery without God.  A place that I cry out for pity and the reality is there is none.  None, I deserve what I got, but if there is a God, he is willing to find me to find him. I have given up on trying to find the answers within.  Now, I seek the divine for help.  I have placed myself in a situation that I cannot handle and I cannot deal with. I do not ask for sympathy because I deserve what I got. I run out of answers and now I seek out the one that forgives my past actions

January 23, 2012 at 2:00 am Leave a comment

Newt Thinks That He Can Win Florida Yeah Right

Newt Gingrich thinks that he can Florida.  Well, the Wall Street Journal puts another take on that

TAMPA, Fla.—With a loss in South Carolina, Mitt Romney is turning to the caucuses and primaries ahead. Up first is Florida, a state where Mr. Romney has meticulously built up a campaign network.

The Romney campaign began reaching out to absentee voters in December to leverage the state’s early-voting period, an important element of the Jan. 31 Florida primary. With 10 days to go, his campaign on Saturday said it has done a lot of work to take advantage of early balloting.

“He has a tremendous network, and he has people who have networks,” said state Republican Rep. Jim Frishe, the majority whip in the Florida legislature. Mr. Frishe was among more than 20 people who turned out to vote for Mr. Romney after a rally in St. Petersburg.


The rally was just one of the Romney events across each of the state’s 10 media markets—taking place outside a polling site with piles of signs for Mr. Romney and none for Newt Gingrich.

And New York Times reports

” CHARLESTON, S.C. — For Mitt Romney, the South Carolina primary was not just a defeat, though it was most emphatically that. It was where his campaign confronted the prospect it had most hoped to avoid: a lone, surging and energized rival


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The rebirth of Newt Gingrich, a notion that seemed far-fetched only weeks ago, back in Iowa, has upended a litany of assumptions about this turbulent race. It wounds Mr. Romney, particularly given his stinging margin of defeat here on Saturday, and raises the likelihood that the Republican contest could stretch well into the springtime.

Republican voters, after delivering three different winners in the first three stops in the nominating contest, are in no rush to settle on their nominee.

Mr. Romney had trouble with evangelical voters and voters for whom shared faith was important. He had trouble winning over voters who support the Tea Party movement. During his stay in South Carolina, he had trouble handling questions about his wealth and trouble in matching Mr. Gingrich in exciting the passions of conservatives.”

But as Mr. Gingrich surges in the polls on the back of strong debate performances, political insiders here are asking whether Team Romney can organize its way to victory.”

Sorry, Newt you are going to use lose in Florida and the same thing with Rich Santourm.  You are not win because Florida has the population and it is has more people than Iowa and South Carolina combined.

Newt does not have money to beat the Romney’s Superpacs and television advertising  is going to mean more than it is does three prior states.  So for Gingrich, Paul, and Santorum, it has been a good feeling to beat Mitt, but you are going to lose in Florida and Mitt Romney is going to clean his clock  Florida voted for Obama in 2008 and therefore, is a moderate state.  It is Mitt Romney’s race to win and he is going to win  big in Florida

January 22, 2012 at 2:45 am Leave a comment

Adderall Shortgages


The Adderall shortage has affected me personally.  I had to switch my drug of choice for my autism from Adderall to Vyanse because of shortage. 

Nothing about the drug shortage makes me happy.  I remember that I was so livid when the drug store told me that I had pay $133.00 for the brand name Adderall.  I kept on going to the pharmacy and they did not have any.

They kept on stating that there was no shipments including the brand name.   I realized that I had to change my drugs.  I had to made to switch to Vyanse because Vyanse had a larger supply.

What I experienced is a nation-wide phenomenon,  Adderall is out in many location.  The New York Times reports

  Medicines to treat attention deficit hyperactivity disorder are in such short supply that hundreds of patients complain daily to the Food and Drug Administration that they are unable to find a pharmacy with enough pills to fill their prescriptions.

The shortages are a result of a troubled partnership between drug manufacturers and the Drug Enforcement Administration, with companies trying to maximize their profits and drug enforcement agents trying to minimize abuse by people, many of them college students, who use the medications to get high or to stay up all night.

Caught in between are millions of children and adults who rely on the pills to help them stay focused and calm. Shortages, particularly of cheaper generics, have become so endemic that some patients say they worry almost constantly about availability


Reuters reports

“Our production facilities are currently running at maximum capacity for Adderall utilizing all available API,” said Teva’s Bradley. “The catalyst for the problem is the quota system, not the business.”

The DEA sets its aggregate quota at the beginning of each year, taking into account past quota levels, inventory levels and company sales forecasts. But the DEA’s assessment of what a company needs may not be the same as the company’s own estimates. It is an ongoing process of negotiation.

“DEA can come back and say, ‘we agree with your forecast and issue everything you want,’ or they may come back and say ‘we don’t think you need that much,’ and they give you 75 percent,” said Matt Cabrey, a spokesman for Shire.


The drug companies have no incentive to produce generic drugs because they is artificially low quota that limits the supply that they can make.  To maximize profits, the drug companies only make the brand name form because there is limited amount that they can supply and the drug companies need to minimum profits to offset expense and make a reasonable rate of return for investors.

I would place blame on both the DEA and the drug companies.  It is DEA that has the power to increase the quota and therefore, increase the supply of the Adderall.  Once the supply increase, you can sell the generics drugs because you can mass produce them and make a reasonable rate off the increased

In the case of Shire, I believe that Shire is trying to phase out Adderall for another drug called Vyanse which has a 14 hours duration for one tablet,  14 hours is longer than the 8 hours that Adderall XR   There is more incentive for Shire to sell the Vyanse than sell Adderall XR or short-release Adderall.  There less incentive to abuse Vyanse than to abuse short-release Adderall because the medication is time-released.

The interesting thing about Shire is that Shire charges $185.00 for Vyanse and $300+ for both Adderall XR in the generic and brand versions.  So Shire makes less money off Vyanse than it does on Addreall XR or short-release Adderall.

The reality is that Obama needs to go personally over to the DEA and tell them the leader of the DEA in a face-to-face meeting that the quota needs to go up.  The DEA does not respond to increase in drug quotas or legalization of drugs unless it is forced to by Congress or the President personally makes direct order to the DEA .   The solution is on Obama to deal with this problem,




January 2, 2012 at 2:14 am Leave a comment

Just for Today

know that I can do something for 24 hours that would overwhelm me if I had to keep it up for a lifetime.
JUST FOR TODAY: I will be happy. I will not dwell on thoughts that depress me. If my mind fills with clouds, I will chase them away and fill it with sunshine.
JUST FOR TODAY: I will accept what is. I will face reality. I will correct those things that I can correct and accept those I cannot.
JUST FOR TODAY: I will improve my mind. I will read something that requires effort, thought and concentration. I will not be a mental loafer.
JUST FOR TODAY: I will make a conscious effort to be agreeable. I will be kind and courteous to those who cross my path, and I’ll not speak ill of others. I will improve my appearance, speak softly, and not interrupt when someone else is talking.
Just for today, I will refrain from improving anybody but myself.
JUST FOR TODAY: I will do something positive to improve my health. If I’m a smoker, I’ll quit. If I am overweight, I will eat healthfully — if only for today. And not only that, I will get off the couch and take a brisk walk, even if it’s only around the block.
JUST FOR TODAY: I will gather the courage to do what is right and take the responsibility for my own actions. And now, Dear Readers, I would like to share an item that was sent to me by I.J. Bhatia, a reader who lives in New Delhi, India:
DEAR ABBY: This year, no resolutions, only some guidelines. The Holy Vedas say: “Man has subjected himself to thousands of self-inflicted bandages. Wisdom comes to a man who lives according to the true eternal laws of nature.”
The prayer of St. Francis (of which there are several versions) contains a powerful message:
Lord, make me an instrument of your peace;
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
Where there is injury, pardon;
Where there is doubt, faith;
Where there is despair, hope;
Grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
To be understood, as to understand;
To be loved, as to love;
For it is in giving that we receive,
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
And it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.
And so, Dear Readers, may this new year bring with it good health, peace and joy to all of you. — LOVE, ABBY

January 1, 2012 at 9:10 pm Leave a comment


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