Self-Seclusion

Lord, make me a channel of thy peace, that where there is hatred, I may bring love; that where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness; that where there is discord, I may bring harmony; that where there is error, I may bring truth; that where there is doubt, I may bring faith; that where there is despair, I may bring hope; that where there are shadows, I may bring light that where there is sadness, I may bring joy.
Lord, grant that I may seek rather to comfort than to be comforted; to understand, than to be understood; to love, than to be loved.  For it is by self-forgetting that one finds.  It is by forgiving that one is forgiven.
It is by dying that one awakens to Eternal Life.
 
Self-seclusion is never a good thing.  However, I have been the master of self-seclusion.  Self-seclusion often occurs in my life because I feel sometimes that nobody accepts me.

I just sit in my big house and pout about how bad things are.   I really pouting because no one is commenting on my facebook or that I did not get a personal invivation  to a party that I allow to attend.

It is these waves of self-pity that go in on my soul. I pretend that no one loves me or nobody respects me. 

It is me that has the problem.   It is because I crave attention and when no attention is paid to me, I get upset.  I feel emotionally insecure.

It is selflish feeling.  Selfish feelings often lead to despair.  So when I get into self-despair, I need to recite this prayer.

“Lord, make me a channel of thy peace, that where there is hatred, I may bring love; that where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness; that where there is discord, I may bring harmony; that where there is error, I may bring truth; that where there is doubt, I may bring faith; that where there is despair, I may bring hope; that where there are shadows, I may bring light that where there is sadness, I may bring joy.
Lord, grant that I may seek rather to comfort than to be comforted; to understand, than to be understood; to love, than to be loved.  For it is by self-forgetting that one finds.  It is by forgiving that one is forgiven.
It is by dying that one awakens to Eternal Life.

That ends the selfish streak.  Now, it is time for me to go the event and focus on others.  Focus on others feelings, lives, and interests.  To relieve myself of this burden called self takes a lifetime.

Quote of The DAy

“Gossip barbed with our anger is a polite for of murder by character assassination, has its satistifications. Here we are not trying to help those we criticize, we are trying to proclaim our own righteousness” – Bill Wilson

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