I have concluded that life is difficult to deal without my OCD medicine. I had to cut an experiment to see how successfully that I dealt with the anxiety of long-term unemployment without my medicine.  The results was that I was starting to get bitter, full of self-blame, and overthinking about my life’s problems.  I felt that anxiety would help me take some very uncomfortable actions, but in the end, the amount of overthinking was way too much to handle.  I concluded that I really do have OCD (at least the type that makes you constantly overthink).  The medication made me feel better, but at what cost?