Dreadful Hot Day

Unbearable heat makes today a dreary day. Instead of doing the books and recording journal entries, I spent the day of misery at home. If you came out of the room, you felt like you were in a blast furnace. My roommate had to work on the roof of an unknown commercial facility. He came home in a brow of sweat. A brow of sweat. He was that hot. For me, I just spent the day inside. I did have a productive day: applied for a job closer to home and went to get my disability ID card at the OCTA. I went into an air-conditioned courtroom that I should have been in. I call 95 degrees even 100 bearable, but 109 no way jose. If you live in Phoenix, you would call me a coward indeed. But I am not used to such misery, and the heat is out to get me.

The dreariness carries into tomorrow, but hopefully, by Sunday, it will be cooler

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July 7, 2018 at 2:12 am Leave a comment

Dreadful Hot Day

Unbearable heat makes today a dreary day. Instead of doing the books and recording journal entries, I spent the day of misery at home. If you came out of the room, you felt like you were in a blast furnace. My roommate had to work on the roof of an unknown commercial facility. He came home in a brow of sweat. A brow of sweat. He was that hot. For me, I just spent the day inside. I did have a productive day: applied for a job closer to home and went to get my disability ID card at the OCTA. I went into an air-conditioned courtroom that I should have been in. I call 95 degrees even 100 bearable, but 109 no way jose. If you live in Phoenix, you would call me a coward indeed. But I am not used to such misery, and the heat is out to get me.

The dreariness carries into tomorrow, but hopefully, by Sunday, it will be cooler

July 7, 2018 at 2:12 am Leave a comment

Meaningful Conversation

oday I went to a picnic today that had over 200 people at it. 200 people. That is a lot of people. I mean a lot. 200 people for me is a dizzying amount of people. Trying to interact and learn 200 people names, hobbies, and interest makes it a severe problem.

As usual, I went to up to people and just said “Hi,” “How are you doing,” or “What is going in your life?” I wanted to keep conversation superficial at best, so I can avoid trying to steer conservation with a person who also has to cope with 200 people.

The other person feels just overwhelmed as I do, but they have probably do have coping mechanisms which allow them to process two hundred people and prioritize which people to speak with at the event. I just become overwhelmed with the number of people, and as time passed, my ability to cognitively handle the conversation declined.
The superficial conversation helped me cope with my poor ability to learn how to capture people’s attention with stimulating conversation and also the ability to draw their attention away from the potential of having a conservation with one of the other two hundred people there.

Learning that takes a considerable amount of skill and challenge. It would mean that I am willing to exert myself to best of my ability to achieve the meaningful moment with somebody that I do not know. As a person who has mild autism, I shy away from that. The more natural path is to accept my limitations and go to the event.

I know there are people out there who you want to exert yourself to the limits socially. They want to become a master extrovert. But for me, this is not the crowd to become the master extrovert especially with the number of people to deal with and the audience that I am dealing with at the event. I find that meaningful conservations come best in a smaller crowd and with people with like minds and intellects. I need to stop to think that I need to be some great extrovert because I am not.

May 29, 2018 at 4:25 am Leave a comment

Meaningful Conversation

oday I went to a picnic today that had over 200 people at it. 200 people. That is a lot of people. I mean a lot. 200 people for me is a dizzying amount of people. Trying to interact and learn 200 people names, hobbies, and interest makes it a severe problem.

As usual, I went to up to people and just said “Hi,” “How are you doing,” or “What is going in your life?” I wanted to keep conversation superficial at best, so I can avoid trying to steer conservation with a person who also has to cope with 200 people.

The other person feels just overwhelmed as I do, but they have probably do have coping mechanisms which allow them to process two hundred people and prioritize which people to speak with at the event. I just become overwhelmed with the number of people, and as time passed, my ability to cognitively handle the conversation declined.
The superficial conversation helped me cope with my poor ability to learn how to capture people’s attention with stimulating conversation and also the ability to draw their attention away from the potential of having a conservation with one of the other two hundred people there.

Learning that takes a considerable amount of skill and challenge. It would mean that I am willing to exert myself to best of my ability to achieve the meaningful moment with somebody that I do not know. As a person who has mild autism, I shy away from that. The more natural path is to accept my limitations and go to the event.

I know there are people out there who you want to exert yourself to the limits socially. They want to become a master extrovert. But for me, this is not the crowd to become the master extrovert especially with the number of people to deal with and the audience that I am dealing with at the event. I find that meaningful conservations come best in a smaller crowd and with people with like minds and intellects. I need to stop to think that I need to be some great extrovert because I am not.

May 29, 2018 at 4:25 am Leave a comment

Meaningful Conversation

oday I went to a picnic today that had over 200 people at it. 200 people. That is a lot of people. I mean a lot. 200 people for me is a dizzying amount of people. Trying to interact and learn 200 people names, hobbies, and interest makes it a severe problem.

As usual, I went to up to people and just said “Hi,” “How are you doing,” or “What is going in your life?” I wanted to keep conversation superficial at best, so I can avoid trying to steer conservation with a person who also has to cope with 200 people.

The other person feels just overwhelmed as I do, but they have probably do have coping mechanisms which allow them to process two hundred people and prioritize which people to speak with at the event. I just become overwhelmed with the number of people, and as time passed, my ability to cognitively handle the conversation declined.
The superficial conversation helped me cope with my poor ability to learn how to capture people’s attention with stimulating conversation and also the ability to draw their attention away from the potential of having a conservation with one of the other two hundred people there.

Learning that takes a considerable amount of skill and challenge. It would mean that I am willing to exert myself to best of my ability to achieve the meaningful moment with somebody that I do not know. As a person who has mild autism, I shy away from that. The more natural path is to accept my limitations and go to the event.

I know there are people out there who you want to exert yourself to the limits socially. They want to become a master extrovert. But for me, this is not the crowd to become the master extrovert especially with the number of people to deal with and the audience that I am dealing with at the event. I find that meaningful conservations come best in a smaller crowd and with people with like minds and intellects. I need to stop to think that I need to be some great extrovert because I am not.

May 29, 2018 at 4:25 am Leave a comment

An Alcoholic Once Said

n alcoholic said today –
“Funny how people consider addicts to be weak considering how difficult it is living as one. Waking up everyday with a pounding headache with a feeling of a baby elephant sitting on your chest, anxiety so bad it feels like a vice grip is lodged in your gut, getting outta bed despite all this and going to work where you’re forced to deal with the world while being barely functional. Dragging yourself to the liquor store no matter how shit you feel, doing chores and errands when all you wanna do is crawl in a hole and die peacefully. Having family and friends leave you alone with your demons. The isolation and turmoil we carry every day, and despite all this we keep moving forward. I’m proud of you guys, this shit isn’t easy”

Shit, I am on the other side of that. The other side of the light shines over me and bless me with good luck. I no longer have to deal with that bondage because it is wretched. Purely wretched. And yet I spared the pain of that ugly misery called alcoholism for another day. And many days hopefully in the future

May 29, 2018 at 4:24 am Leave a comment

The Danger of Losing of Reproductive Freedom Starts In Iowa

I am no fan of abortion. It is something that I prefer not talking about it. I do not openly support it. But, I do believe in access to abortion as a right of choice.

A choice to have control over your body is a critical value to me. I would never, ever under any circumstances would consciously support a woman’s right to terminate a baby that I fathered. I would state that the mother that it’s her job to pop out of the kid and then I would take a responsibility raising the kid. But it’s not my body, and if she decides to abort the child, then it’s her decision and her right to do so.

This is why this law in Iowa is so concerning Iowa past a new law as reported by the AP that would pass the fetal heartbeat law.

DES MOINES, Iowa (AP) — Iowa Gov. Kim Reynolds on Friday signed a law banning most abortions if a fetal heartbeat can be detected, or at around six weeks of pregnancy, marking the strictest abortion regulation in the nation — but setting the state up for a lengthy court fight.

The Republican governor signed the legislation in her formal office at the state Capitol as protesters gathered outside chanting, “My body, my choice!” Reynolds acknowledged that the new law would likely face litigation, but said: “This is bigger than just a law, this is about life, and I’m not going to back down.” Reynolds has previously said she was “proud to be pro-life.”

What concerns is that limits a woman have the freedom of choice to what does she do with her body. And it also is designed to be a test case so that five ultra-conservative Supreme Court justices would state that the law is legal and effectively dealing a Roe Vs Wade as invalid. Than states can start to eliminate abortion on a state by state level.

That is what concerns me. The only positive and I mean that the only positive that the blowback on the GOP would be so large that blue wave in 2020 would come in and crush the GOP in a landslide.

ANd the negative thing about this law is that these laws do not allow for a signifcant increase in the food stamp, universal daycare, and significantly making progress to cover the gender gap. If a woman is going to force to have a kid that she does now want, than these fools should be required to vastly expand the welfare state and education budgets to deal with the kids.

These people make decision based on religious motivations, but then do not foresee the consequences of their decisions. And if they were truely consistent with the biblical message, than they would be ready to expand the social safety net so the consequences of their actions would be properly dealt with in a correct way.

To me, it is an act of both sexual repression and inhumane control that these people pass their law. Little thought is given to the consequences of their actions Expanding the social safety and education spending to accommodate the additional kids. Also, increasing the amount of early child and parental classes to assist struggling new mothers handle the burden of being a single mother.

Otherwise, you will get a bunch of kids that are unruly, undisciplined. and unwanted. The so-called religious revival that is going to make America have wholesome Christian families is never going to happen.

The amount of “righteous Christians” has always been small. The amount of pseudo followers of God that are out there are in the millions. And author of Revelations knew this and he wrote about the seven Churches. Only the Church of Smyrna and Church of Philadelphia were the righetous church.

And righteous Christians would properly follow the instructions of God’s law and would not engage in behavior that would require an abortion. Abortions are designed for the people who have choosen to follow a non-Christian spiritual path and should have that right of choice.
Why would we trust the Christian right who most of their members would be in the members of the other five churches (not Philadelphia or Smyrna) to dictate to the rest of society about freedom of reproductive rights? These are the same people who engage in the same sinful behavior as the Christian conservative preacheers state as the “World” and yet want society to live in some type of twisted version of Ayn Rand Laissez-faire capitalistic society.

May 6, 2018 at 2:56 am Leave a comment

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